The piece was called “Nobody Knows.” I stared at it for two solid and uninterrupted minutes before Jamé even brought the pun in the title to my attention. I wasn’t focused on the woman’s missing nose; instead, I was fixated on the phrase “Nobody Knows,” one that seemed to sum up the current state of my life all too well.
At the beginning of this summer, Michelle Izquierdo invited me to do PR for Spirit, an art show she curated with her close friend and artist Vanessa Smith. I met Michelle earlier this year when she showcased work at See. Speak. Feel. and she seemed like the perfect kind of person to partner with–open with her artistry, but also able to get down to business. It’s not always easy to find those types.
What I didn’t know when Michelle and I started working together back in June was just how much I would need that show on Sept. 12. When I signed on to work Spirit, I added my PR duties to a growing summer to-do list. But, by the time the show rolled around, I was depleted creatively. At my wit’s end. Empty. Lost. Unsure of my next steps on every possible level.
I still am.
But in the hour or so that I got to soak up the art at Spirit, I remembered that even when my inner flame starts to flicker, I am still surrounded by an incredible tribe of creative, vibrant and artistic women. See, this life will ebb and flow. I will rise and I will fall. But, those things never affect this amazing fabric of people I’ve met along the way. Sometimes it is OK to let other people breathe life into you when it feels like you’re fighting for air.
Right now, nobody knows. I have promised myself that I will write through the storm and pen my way past the cyclone, but the truth is nobody will ever know the war I’m waging with myself. Right now. In this moment. As I live and breathe and type these very words. It is a war with fangs and claws and bloody red eyes. It is a war pushing me beyond my comfort zone and rearranging the things I once knew. It is a war that means penning less, planning less and praying more. And on some days, no matter how many promises I make to myself, I can’t dilute the mess into words. So, thank you, Michelle and Vanessa, for saying what words can’t with the work you’ve created.
And, when I say I’m surrounded by an incredible tribe of creative women, I also got to share the day at Spirit with a few of my loves: GG Renee Hill of All The Many Layers, Roconia Price of Ever So Roco and Jamé Jackson of The Blonde Misfit. Here are some of my favorite excerpts from their recaps:
Michelle said she doesn’t know if she wants to paint for a living necessarily, but she knows that she wants a creative career. I talk about creative living a lot here on the blog and with my clients and how this doesn’t necessarily mean you quit your day job and become an artist. It means taking all the different aspects of you and bringing them into everything you do. Creative living is purposely designing your life so you can thrive in environments that inspire you. It’s about actively utilizing who you are, what you believe in and what you’re good at to make a difference in the world. This takes curiosity, self-awareness and of course, courage. –GG, “5 Creative Ideas From the Spirit Art Show“
There’s a universal spirit threaded through every element of artistry, whether you wield a paintbrush, push a pen, or strum a ukulele. It looks like you, striding in your purpose. It smells like something all your own: fresh paint, an empty venue, the pages of your newly printed book. It sounds like Michelle telling you that she recalls speaking to you in the bathroom before your performance at See. Speak. Feel., saying she remembers how focused you were in the mirror, saying that she enjoyed your poem. It feels like the lurch in your stomach when you walk into Spirit and smell fresh baked authenticity, served with a side of chilled good vibes. –Roconia, Spirit Art Show: The Recap
In a world where Misfits are always told ‘no’ or artists are not celebrated, it felt good to see artists who proudly walked in their own right and who found a way to monetize on that. Ok, I know some people will probably side eye for saying such, but let me just say that just because we love creating art does NOT mean we don’t still have bills. Hello. –Jamé, TheBlondeMisfit: Recap: ‘Spirit’ & A Reawakened One
Tyece & the ladies of Spirit